It’s been almost 4 months since my last blog. I’d say I’m
sorry but I’m really not. The truth is that if I had written you would have
been bored. I would have just been trying to put together words that made no
sense, but today I think I have some thoughts that actually do make some kind
of sense.
Since I last wrote I’ve made a few decisions in my life. Pretty big ones too in the life of a young woman. I put my house on the market and I’ve decided to look into my options outside of Nashville. I’ve been here 11 years. 11 really wonderful years, but I feel like now might be the time to see IF perhaps the Lord has other plans for me. Please notice that I said IF. I’m not closing any doors. I’m not quitting my job. I’m not doing anything drastic or dramatic. I’m just trying to see if there are any windows open anywhere. My dream is to work for NASCAR or a NASCAR team in the Charlotte area so I’m [very unsuccessfully] looking into that. :) But let’s be honest. Change can really be strange and stressful and just flat out scary.
So, I was driving home from Kroger last night about 7:15 when I had this overwhelming physical feeling of pure and utter joy. I felt it from my head to my toes and for a minute I was really caught off guard. Why in the world was I so happy? Was it the 3 peaches, 3 plumbs and tub of watermelon I had just purchased from the grocery store? I mean, I really wanted some fruit but I didn’t know I was THAT excited about it. Turns out it wasn’t the fruit (although it did prove to be very delicious). After a few seconds of thinking about it, a huge smile came to my face when I realized that the feeling I was feeling was peace. Straight up, God given, God breathed peace. The kind that transcends all understanding.
For me it was a nod from the Lord that I was doing His will. I was doing what I needed to be doing to walk the path he has planned out for me. The best part of it all, for the most part all I am doing is being still. There is a time in our lives when we are stuck in between praying for God’s will and seeing it come to fruition. Sometimes it’s hard to know what to do with the in-between time. I’ve found it best to just be still .... and to know ... know that He is God. I have found great peace in this place. And that is what I was feeling last night.
Man, I’ve been through some junk in my 31 years in life, but you know what? Every last second was worth it. I know right now, in this moment, that there wasn’t a wasted second so far in my life. It has all brought me to this place that I know to be exactly where I am supposed to be.
Will I sell my house? Will I get my dream job with NASCAR? Will I live in Nashville for 50 more years? I don’t know ... and honestly if it doesn’t all work out it’ll be ok. I’ll be exactly where I’m supposed to be and I’ll know by the peace the Lord provides in the times and the ways I need it most.
Since I last wrote I’ve made a few decisions in my life. Pretty big ones too in the life of a young woman. I put my house on the market and I’ve decided to look into my options outside of Nashville. I’ve been here 11 years. 11 really wonderful years, but I feel like now might be the time to see IF perhaps the Lord has other plans for me. Please notice that I said IF. I’m not closing any doors. I’m not quitting my job. I’m not doing anything drastic or dramatic. I’m just trying to see if there are any windows open anywhere. My dream is to work for NASCAR or a NASCAR team in the Charlotte area so I’m [very unsuccessfully] looking into that. :) But let’s be honest. Change can really be strange and stressful and just flat out scary.
So, I was driving home from Kroger last night about 7:15 when I had this overwhelming physical feeling of pure and utter joy. I felt it from my head to my toes and for a minute I was really caught off guard. Why in the world was I so happy? Was it the 3 peaches, 3 plumbs and tub of watermelon I had just purchased from the grocery store? I mean, I really wanted some fruit but I didn’t know I was THAT excited about it. Turns out it wasn’t the fruit (although it did prove to be very delicious). After a few seconds of thinking about it, a huge smile came to my face when I realized that the feeling I was feeling was peace. Straight up, God given, God breathed peace. The kind that transcends all understanding.
For me it was a nod from the Lord that I was doing His will. I was doing what I needed to be doing to walk the path he has planned out for me. The best part of it all, for the most part all I am doing is being still. There is a time in our lives when we are stuck in between praying for God’s will and seeing it come to fruition. Sometimes it’s hard to know what to do with the in-between time. I’ve found it best to just be still .... and to know ... know that He is God. I have found great peace in this place. And that is what I was feeling last night.
Man, I’ve been through some junk in my 31 years in life, but you know what? Every last second was worth it. I know right now, in this moment, that there wasn’t a wasted second so far in my life. It has all brought me to this place that I know to be exactly where I am supposed to be.
Will I sell my house? Will I get my dream job with NASCAR? Will I live in Nashville for 50 more years? I don’t know ... and honestly if it doesn’t all work out it’ll be ok. I’ll be exactly where I’m supposed to be and I’ll know by the peace the Lord provides in the times and the ways I need it most.
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