Love Has Come

Well, as of tomorrow I’ll be one very short month away from my 30^th birthday. I’d like to start by saying I do not, by any means, think that 30 is old.

I think what is blowing me away about 30 is all of the years I have lived. It is really overwhelming for me to even think about the last 30 years. I mean I’ve been alive 10,925 days ... that’s a lot of days with a lot of events and feelings and thoughts ... and for an over-thinker like myself you can’t even begin to comprehend the madness. Whew.

I was getting ready this morning, using my Simply Ageless Cover Girl makeup that covers up the very few wrinkles I have, and I was thinking about a few of the last years of my life. I thought about this last year, for starters, and realized how great it’s been. It has been the least dramatic year of my life and it has been so wonderful. I think it’s because I’ve finally settled into who the Lord made me to be. It’s so wonderful to rest in Him. To trust Him. And to just let Him love me. I don’t need anything else.

Then I thought about the 29 years before this year ... all in one big lump ... and I kinda felt sick. Unfortunately when I think about years in big groups like that I am reminded mostly of my failures. And it scares the pants off of me.

Man, I’ve done some dumb things in my life. I’ve made some really bad mistakes. I’ve had moments of being the complete opposite of who the Lord made me to be. I’ve been mistreated and in turn I’ve mistreated. I’ve been abused so I have abused. I’ve been hated and I have hated. The list goes on and on.

These past actions at times haunt me to the point of wondering if I’ve messed it all up. Have I crossed the line too many times, no matter how long ago, to ever fully bask in all that the Lord planned for me? As I asked myself that question for the 1,000,000^th time I realized there is no way I am the only one who thinks this way. There is no way I am the only one who is scared.

But the good news is that we haven’t messed up too much. We haven’t fallen so far away, at times, that the Lord couldn’t find us. And find us He has. Oh my ... has He found me! He found me and rescued me and has allowed me to repent of all of those bad times ... and I mean truly repent. I’ve turned away never to look back. Never to make those same mistakes again.

Will I make other mistakes? You know I will. I’ll never be perfect but my focus is different now. My focus going into this wonderful 30^th year of my life isn’t pleasing people or making people like me. My focus is loving the Lord with my entire heart, soul and mind.

What I’d like to say to myself in this blog is this ... The Lord has great plans for you. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Don’t be afraid of your future.

And that’s what I’d say to you too. Don’t be afraid. Love has come to save you ...

Love HAS saved you. You have no reason to fear.