oh well ....

i don't have anything poetic to say. it's been quite a ride the last 2 months or so.

i've been asking the Lord to change me. in an obvious way. i've been ready to make a new start ... dream my dreams ... and expect the best.

i took a trip to see my sister and her family a few weeks ago. it was so great.

i worked a lot. put out some new great projects. did the best i could.

and then i lost my job on thursday. and now ... i just feel like i'm on vacation, but i'm not. it's like a wolf in sheep's clothing.

i do not know what is next. i haven't gotten that far in my brain yet. i'm just kinda numb right now.

i know the Lord has something really fantastic planned for me. i wish he would really tell me what to do next. thinking about all the decisions i'm about to have to make scares me to death.

sometimes i don't want to be strong enough to make them. i just want to go to sleep and pretend all this never happened.

but now is my time to start over ... and do whatever i want. i just have to figure out what that is.

change comes in all shapes and sizes. this one is massive.