what happened when i (the grinch) went to texas.

i've been praying a lot lately that something drastic would change in my life. something big. huge. massive. something so great that i wouldn't be able to say no. something inside of me says it's time for a change.

i haven't had the "bomb dropped on me" yet. i'm not putting a time limit on the change. i'm actually waiting patiently ... which alone is actually something big. huge. and massive.

i did go on a little trip this weekend to midland, tx. at first i didn't really want to go. it's hot there. and i have gotten so used to my normal routine here at home that the thought of that being disrupted kinda freaked me out. but i got a big surprise...

i loved it!

the people in midland were the most genuinely nice people i have ever met. my heart grew 3 times its size while i was there. it was like i was the grinch and i didn't even know it. but God knew it and he sent me to the middle of nowhere texas to find it out. praise the Lord for the way he works. i believe he had this planned out a long time ago. i know he did.

i met some really wonderful people and got to hang out with a few old friends. those friends spoke truth and life into me without even realizing it ... i assume. this fresh perspective made me start to really think about some things i have thought before ... about ministry.

i've always wondered if there was a place for me there ... in full time ministry i mean. and if there was what did that look like? i still have no idea but i like thinking about it because when i do it makes my heart feel really full and stable (kinda like it does when i think about owning my own "the container store" ... but even better)! so, i don't know what this thinking means or if it means anything but i'm going to pray about it. and hope my prayers are completely sincere. i've made enough decisions in my life out of selfishness. i'm done with all of that!

i believe there is something really great waiting for me in life. i believe it is something bigger than my heart can even contain at this moment.

"and what happened then? well, in whoville they say that the grinch's small heart grew three sizes that day. and then - the true meaning of Christmas came through, and the grinch found the strength of *ten* grinches, plus two!"