another wedding

my bestest friend got married last night. it was wonderful. she and i spent so much time planning it out to make it exactly what she wanted and it turned out perfectly! it was a lot of work but in the end it was worth it and i would do it all over again for her if she asked me.

the whole weekend this weekend was wonderful. lots of time spent with jennifer's friends eating and laughing and just enjoying each other. we got to go out on the house boat on the lake friday night for the rehearsal dinner and just enjoy it all. saturday night at the governor's club jennifer was a beautiful bride and asa was just glowing. he knows he is the luckiest man alive. it's refreshing to see such true and passionate love. it's rare these days.

jennifer and asa both have changed my life in so many ways. jennifer changed my definition of friendship when i met her. she was (and is) a true blue friend. nothing i can do will ever change her friendship with me. she loves me like i'm her sister and i like she was mine. she has taught me what it is to seek God. to love God and to try our hardest to stay in tune with His will. she has changed my heart about life. asa has aided in the healing of some health issues in my life. God has given him a gift that he has shared with me and others to help us live healthier lives. he has ministered to me with his sweet heart and he gives me hope for the man that i will one day call my own. their ministries were so strong before they even met, and now the two of them will be able to have an even greater ministry together. i can't wait to see it!

so how do i feel about it now? 24 hours later? i'm so freakin happy for her that i can't even stand it. if anyone deserves the man she got ... she does! she has waited so patiently and prayerfully over the years to get one of the greatest men i've ever met.

selfishly i am sad. i will miss my bff being single like me. haha. but i know she will still understand where i am coming from in my singleness. it's hard to watch all of your friends get married and start having babies. like life is moving on and i'm standing still. so i have lots of emotions about it, but i promise that happiness for my friend is #1.

i can't wait to meet the man God has for me. i can't wait to plan my own wedding. i have lots of practice now, so i'm an old pro.

so now what? who knows? onward and upwards to whatever the Lord has for me. i'm ready!