be still and know ...

i woke up this morning and was thinking about silence. 

i've found myself, more than not, in silence over the last week or so. i don't turn on music in the mornings like i used to. i don't turn on music in my car on my way to or from work. i don't really listen to that much of my own music at work. it's like my mind has been somewhere else. and that place didn't involve music. 

this is kinda strange for me because my life revolves around music. i feel like it always has. if i wasn't singing it i was listening to it and now i work for it. but, nevertheless, i haven't really had the appetite for it lately.

i wonder why this is. perhaps i'm just so hungry for answers from the Lord right now that i want to give Him any and every opportunity to talk to me. i don't want to miss out. i think He might be doing this on purpose. of course He is doing this on purpose. i don't THINK He is. i KNOW He is. 

there has been lots of silence in my life over the last week. some i've chosen. some i haven't. my phone has never been so silent after such a long time of it being anything but that. sometimes i put it on silent to gather my thoughts. all of these things make for some very quiet days. i'm not used to such quiet. i don't know that i really like it all that much but it is what i have been handed and i will make the best of it ... mark my word!

but i think the Lord is telling me that silence is exactly what i need for this season of my life. 

"be still and know that I am God"

God did not speak to elijah through the wind, nor the earthquake, or in the fire ... but by a still small voice. i have to stop and remind myself what kind of voice i am listening for. more than likely it is the voice i keep hearing very calmly and perfectly in my soul and not the ones that are being shouted at me loudly.

i think silence is the only way for me hear these things. 

so i will be silent. i will be prayerful. and i will wait for the Lord. even when the silence gets the best of me and it seems like too much i will wait for His timing. His love never fails.